cos in a box of chocolates
you never know what kinda surprises you are gonna get
some of the chocolates that you pick may taste uber sweet
and others on the otherhand may taste real bitter
some of your favourites might have be taken away by others
and you are left with no choice but to take the one that you didnt desire
but still at the end of it
you will still finish it with a smile on your face
and i guess perhaps life's like that too
some point of time we might being feeling real blessed and happy
but sometimes some things will happen to make us feel that life really sucked and its not that happy-ever-after afterall
worse still
things that happened might even change the life that you have always been living in
forcing you into a circunstance whereby you have to adapt to the surroundings and life all over again
but somehow i chose to belive that everything happens for a reason
be it good or bad
and no matter how fortunate or unfortunate the event is
we still have to accept it because its part of our life
and instead of sulking at it
telling yourself that "its the best possible thing that could have happened to me" helps
i admit life has been a roller coaster ride since the day i was born
but nothing's perfect in this world isnt it?
no doubt i did at certain point felt like a total loser and giving up was my only option
but God gave me the opportunity to realise that death was not the solution to everything
and that things will not work by itself unless we do something to it
and i really thank Him for sending down 13 aliens and two stickmans into my life to tell me that "hey.life isnt that bad afterall"
family to me was a total disappointment because we dont even behave like one
but maybe its because we are not trying hard enough to get the pieces back together
i guess all the truamas and disappointments in the family are over for now
cos we are back to the return-home-do-your-own-stuff-or-face-the-wall situation
and it really got me very affected
but all i can do is to just accept and hope that miracles will happen
and imma really sorry to feel how i felt for the past 3 weeks
but thanks to those who asked, listened, advised and at the end of the day still choose to stay by my sidei really think i sucked as a fren
i guess imma entering into another chapter of my life
where responsibility and commitment plays a huge role in it
even though its something that i didnt desire and have always been running away from it
i think its time that i bring myself back to reality and face them
no doubt time will be forsaken for dance, friends and family, even for myself which i really dont want to
but i guess its time for me to show dad that he can rely on his xiao bu dian
and that he will not feel so worn out and undergo such disappointments again
its gonna be hard and imma still unsure of myself
but i will never give up
cos i know if ever i were to fall
13 pairs of hands and two pairs of skinny arms are there for me to cling onto
and sorry guys for all the emo faces, silent looks and reluctant smiles that i gave for the past weeks
i wasnt really sure abt what i was thinking abt at that point of time
but i guess i sorta sort out my feelings and all
jia you for me okay?
will miss the times where we just chill our time away and i hope i will not miss out too much of it in future
but despite all the tests, obstacles and exhuastions that imma gonna face
i know somehow i will still smile at the end of the day
and dont worry
imma not emo-ing
:)
"there's nothing good or bad, but thinking makes it so" -william shakespear
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