.IS enrolment is a disater.
.didnt get the mod i want for duration 1.
.but got jap class for duration 2.
.so not that bad.



.met jaei in the morning to pass her the things she wanted.
.she shud be honoured that i woke up early just to meet her.
^^
.went down to office to get the demo phones after IS enrolment.
.and the office is so out of the place can.
=.=
.got four different models of sony ericson.
.and the good news is i can use them like my own phones.
=D
.but now i dont know who one i want to use.
.then off to IMM to meet chi and val for dinner.
.after much "discussion".
.dined at mos for dinner.
.ate natsumi fish as usual.
.but the vege aint as fresh as taka's outlet.
>.<

.when can i stop think abt it?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MAMA XING!!!!

=D









.she was touched to tears when we celebrated for her.
.cos we made it like we totally forgot abt her bdae.
.ans she thought we really forgot.
.hahahahahahahaha.
.i know its evil.
.but the end product was a good one.
=D
.hope she liked our surpirse for her.
.oh ya.
.i bought the cake and had the candles arranged.
.but i dont have a lighter to light them up.
?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
.wahahahahaha.
.thanks to ronnie.
.he went round to get.
.and thank god we found one.
=D
.oh ya.
.i forget to thank ronnie for his brave act of con-ing xing.
.hahaha.
.thanks bro~.


.talked to ann about some stuffs.
.her class ended late.
.so i kinda got drag back by the time.
.result = i didnt manage to meet jun today.
.so badly wanted to meet her.
.cos i somehow feel that with me ard.
.she will feel better.
.read her blog.
.she dont seem to be okayy.
.just wanted to stay by her side.
.cos she once said my voice was her energy to move on.
.imma really sorryy.
.always giving you fasle alarm.
.i guess i really have bad friend management skills.
.knew that i have to celebrate xing's bdae.
.still go do attendance thingy.
.then still want to meet jun.
.fcuk.
.someone teach be kind enough to teach me how to manage?.
.i sucked.

.but by being ard him makes me go :) imma a happy girl

.westmall m1 shop today.
.conclusion.
disaster
.thank god i only have to work for sat.
.but eve brighten up my day!.
.she met me for lunch and i was sorta feeling better after meeting her.
.at least there was someone for me to whine to.
.thats the wonder of having good frens.
thanks for comnig down eve~
.well.
.when i first got there.
.i was almost late.
.but i made it in time to the shop thou.
.then the manager.
.which everyone calls her "mama".
.asked me if i have phones to demo.
.then i didnt have any.
.and the same line goes...
"HUH?!u dont have phone then how?.no demo phones is very difficult to sell phones you know?"
.fcuk.
.like as if i didnt ask from my boss.
.imma still new okayy.
.and not say w/o demo phones u can sell.
.sony ericson total sales was 9k+++ okayy.
.irritating dinosaurs.
.but there are a few other promoters that are nice.
.but all i can say is the looks wins it all.
=D
.peeps who knows me well will know what imam trying to say.
.imma ugly.
period
.but was kinda glad i saw val.
.at first i didn.t see her cos i was serving customers.
.then her bf and her tried calling me.
.and when i looked up i was in total shock.
.i was glad that i saw my frens.
.cos at that time i was suffering there.
.listening to all the scoldings an weird stares.
.alomost burst into tears.
=D
.just hope that next week i can return to imm.
.at least i can hide among the display cardboard.
>.<

.wad am i doing.wad am i supposed to do

.went to bedok to help mum tend her stall.
.cos she needa go for some fengshui thingy.
.so i unwillingly drag myself outta bed at 7 am when i slept at 3am.
@_@
.and mum was so late i thought she neh will return to the stall.
.cos she say she will be done by 5.
.but when i called her at 6.40pm.
.she was still on her way back.
-faints-
.and i swear i wouldnt go back there anymore.
.cos i have too much encouters....


#1
.there was this weird guy.
.he was tall and kinda big in size and he has BO.
.not saying that imma discriminating him.
.but he gives weird stares that sends chill down ur spine.
.and he keep loitering ard the area.
.i was alrd freaked by him cos of his actions.
.suddenly.
.he came over and tap my shoulder and mumbled something weird.
.omg.
.i almost fell off my chair when he tap me.
.imagine how violently i jerked.
.its sooooooooooooooooooooooooo scary and eew~.
.i just hope i dont get nightmare from this.



#2
.i went into ntuc to get batt for my mp3.
.and the cashier was saying.
."so cute ar!so cute.like the owner like that~".
.yeah.
.she was referring to the pacifier necklace that i have.
.and the auntie in front of me was saying to the cashier.
"must be 21 years and below!.and she sucks tht pacifier!"
?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
.then she turned and asked for my age.
.and when i told her.
.she was like beaming to her friend and was saying proudly.
"see!told you she was under 21".
?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!
.what's there to be proud abt?.



#3
.there is this stall vendor that keeps asking me for my mum's and my name.
.yeap.
.i told her OUR names every half an hour.
.wad a good memory she has.






.and so i conclude.
.bedok has a lot of weird people.
=D




.hey my posting time is my birthday~
1:13
=D

.i dont know if i have the strength to carry on.

忐忑不安的心情
没人能理解
心里的思念
非笔墨能形容
可怕的过去
让人无法面对眼前的事实
人啊人
你是充满着矛盾与无奈的
但又有谁能为你解围呢？

FINALLY
.we took neoprints.
.was glad to be with her ytd.
.went town.
.had sakura and our tummy almost burst.
=D
.then walked all the way from town to clarke quay.
.not forgeting our encounter with lotsa crazy peeps.
.took the last bus home.
.talked a lot ytd.
.but i feel that its good.
.at least we told each other things that we didnt know abt.
.but i can sense that somehow she is not happy.
.i just hope that she will feel better real soon.
老婆，加油！！！
.xing went to m'sia to see my pa.
.so cant meet her.
.jus thope that my papaJOE will recover soon.




.and i dont know why.
.i cant seem to get to sleep recently.
.and guess wad?.
.i slept at 5am in the morning.
.and all i did was lying on my bed telling myself to sleep.
=.=
.guess i needa see a doctor.




.been watching KO one recently.
.funny and lame drama.
.but the drama has a lot of meaningful lines.
.one of my favourite was.
朋友是在犯下不可原谅的错误是任旧站在你旁边的笨蛋
.hahs.
.so cute can.
.shall continue to youtube l8r.
^^

.at least i know fornow.JIA YOU!.

.trainings and trainings and trainings.
.been gng back to sch either for funka training if not dance calsses.
.and imma having training l8r at 7.30.
.but i enjoy it thou.
.and we arent left with much time till prelims.
.so we must all work hard.
.tot of the costume for our group.
.shant discolse it now first.
.cos it hasnt been approved.
.but one sad thing.
.i have less time with my family and friends.
>.<



P.S:i passed all my modules =D








.my two dearest.
.sorry to make the two of u so miserable.
.it was selfish of my own decision.
.but now that i know how u two feel.
.and that evereything is settled.
.imma really glad u guys didnt leave me.
友谊万岁
^^

.why do i have those dreams when i dont want them to happen in real life?

m1 shop promoter at imm
was there to help jasmine with her shift
to help promoter ony ericson phone
yeah and i was using motorola
but in the end they hired me also
so
yeah
i got a job out of nowhere
guess god heard my prayers
=)
oh ya
and there's a cute guy in the shop
=p



we took this pic ages ago
=(
finally got to meet her on sun
=)
but was kinda guilty cos i gotta work
and i promised to take that day out just for her
imma sorry
i know you still have lotsa thingy to tell me
and i have yet to tell you what is on my mind
u are also the reason that my tears will flow
cos imma so afraid that history will repeat
i dont know how long this uncertainty will last
but one thing for sure
our friendship will last
i really miss you~

.why other so much when others dont give a fuck about you?

-thanks for everything!~ ^^-


.and now i know.
.it was all my decision.
.i should have chose better.
.but now i know what is the answer.

THE INTERVIEW WITH GOD

I dreamed I had an interview with God.

“So you would like to interview me?” God asked.

“If you have the time” I said.

God smiled. “My time is eternity.”
“What questions do you have in mind for me?”

“What surprises you most about humankind?”

God answered...
“That they get bored with childhood,
they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again.”

“That they lose their health to make money...
and then lose their money to restore their health.”

“That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future.”

"That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived.”

God’s hand took mine
and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...
“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons
you want your children to learn?”

“To learn they cannot make anyone
love them. All they can do
is let themselves be loved.”

“To learn that it is not good
to compare themselves to others.”

“To learn to forgive
by practicing forgiveness.”

“To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those they love,
and it can take many years to heal them.”

“To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least.”

“To learn that there are people
who love them dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings.”

“To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently.”

“To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.”

"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.

"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
“Just know that I am here... always.”

-author unknown





.went to watch "pursuit of happiness" with deeX.
.and one line in the movie that struck me.
."happiness cannot be achieved, it can only be pursuit and that's why they say there is a need to pursuit for happiness".
.something that goes along this line.
.well.
.imma touched and inspired by the story.

.imma sorry for everything.sorry to keep everyone waiting.

.you feel good about it.
.cos it seems that you won.
.putting blames on others when that poor person hasn't even done any shit.
.not everyone has a good mood everyday.
.and dont go around stepping on their tails.
.because everyone's patience has a limit.
.but if you think the jugdement towards you is unfair.
.look for that person who gave you that judgement.
.and stop ACCUSING others.
.cos you should be the one to feel guilty.
.for you wronged an innocent party.

.but i just dont know how to say it.

-sees no one in the reflection but myself-

.had funka training today.
.and i think i can go bang wall and die.
.both mian bao and me are like panting and struggling.
.and my poor girl was complaining of her back aching.
.now its my turn.
=.=
.went to KAP to slack after that.
.intended to eat.
.but i had the bread that mian bao bought for me.
.so i just drank milo and apple dippers.
.eugene came over.
.it was nice talking to them.
.made me felt better.
.and listening to the stories of eugene and she.
.man i swear i can die of laughter.
=D
.gonna meet her tmr before gng dance tmr.
=p
.meeting today was alright.
.just that half of the time my mind doesnt seem to be there.
.but i think no one bothered.
.and my mood was like uber down.
.but the worse thing that happened was that xing didnt ask me what happen.
.and she left me alone in the studio.
>.<
.thank god main bao rushed down.
.but i made her waited for me alone at 73 cos i was at 16.
.so sorryy!.
.for now.
.i just pray for a better tmr.
^^




.been days since i met jun.
.missed her alot.
.but i just dont know how to face her.
.think i got her pissed during our last meeting.
.sorry.










-walking alone aimlessly, what am i doing?-

.i didnt want it to be like this.
.but i just dont know how to express it out.
.i dont know why my eyes are wet when i sleep.
.i tried my best to not think about it.
.maye the curses were true.
.i dont have frens?.
.i guess i lost.
.completely.

a picture says a thousand words

sick and tired of all these