28/4/07

performance at harbourfront center
first ever publc performance
and i screwed it up
but imma not gonna make it happen again
(:





.for nw.
.in just pray that frens ard me will be well and good.
.no more sufferings and enduring.
.cos there is just too much shits for us to carry.
.time out.
.pleaase.








FRIENDSHIP
is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behaviour between two or more humans. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them. Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating on a consistent basis:

• the tendency to desire what is best for the other,
• sympathy and empathy,
• honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth,
• mutual understanding.

and ytd night
i felt it
=D

.and i think i have really made up my mind

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I sneeze even when the weather is freaking hot and the sun is freaking bright.

2. I can sit on my leg in a shape of a "W" and shift them to the front without lifting them up.

3. I can't live without chocolates.

4. I shit instantenously everyday after my meal. =X

5. I burp in the public feeling satisfied. =D

6. My nose can do isolations that freak people out


So the next honourable 6 are....

Jaei
Nicole
Sonia
Eve
Beckie
Jun

NRA audition
dance class
johnson duck
killiney
school
lectures
tutorials




basically
these are the things i have done and places that i went for my supper for the past week
and its been a week since i last saw daddy
cos he's asleep when imma home
>.<
and seriously
i wished that i can sleep the whole day
imma like so lack of sleep can?





PS: MUMMY TALKED TO ME! YEAH! *BEAMS*

doesnt one feel guilty for accusing an innocent?
dont they feel shameful abt themselves for blaming everything around them but themselves?

pegs proudly presents...

.she's my greatest enemy.
.she's the most hideous commentor.
.she loves to make peeps feel demoralised.
.she pinch my face real hard.
.she's the biggest bully in the world.
.she's able to set me thinking after talking.
.she's the person i love most in this world.
.she's the most beautiful lady i know.
.and she is...







TA DAH~



.my dearest deeX!!!!!.
.she's the bestest sister i could have ever gotten in my life.
okayy okayy i know we dont look alike =.=
loveslovesloves <3>
.thanks to you.
.imma feeling better now.
.all the things you have done for me.
.all the things you have said to me.
.all the insults all the scoldings all the quarrels all the late night talks.
.i know its all for my own good.
.thanks.
.really.
.i know its mushy.
.but i will puke if i say it face to face to you.
.but i want to let you know.
.if ever u need someone.
.imma here!!!.
.even though imma irritating and fat and ugly and spoils ur appetite and loud and whatever negative things u can think of.
=D

.and i dont know when i can make it.-stressed-

.a research done by peggy after her exprience at m1 shops.


PeGs: hi there, can i help?
Customer: why ur sony ericson neh give free give one huh?.other phones have leii!why huh??/why always must go sony ericson service centre??very troublesome leii!!!/why u cannot fix the problem huh???.i thought u got go training one????.HUH????

this is what i call irritating customers


PeGs: hi may i help you?
Customer: ......./-walk away-/raise their hand to shut u up

this is what i call "bo-chup" cusotmers



PeGs:hi can i help you
Customer:i ask u arh,you the the phone hor,why the function.....-blah blah blah- and blabbers on for the next 15 minutes

this is what i call talkative customers


PeGs:hi can i help you?
Customer:where do i get the queue number to buy ur Sony Ericson W###/K###

this is what i call steady/on customers


PeGs:can i help you?
Customer:-talk and joke about the phone and in the end buys it-

this is what i call lovable customer <3


.so please be those lovable customers ya?.
.if not you will piss the sales-person off.
=D





.didnt get to meet jun today.
.but well.
.we still have next week.
.i think i can still cope till next week.
.at least for now imma feeling a lil bit better.
.thanks to all that cared.
(:

.i missed her.
):
.when can we take new photos again?.


.finaly i got to chat with her.
.we have been so busy with our own life.
.and my poor deeX.
.she has to bear with the fact that her mr monster is in army.
.and i cant make time to acc her.
>.< .
felt kazillion times better after i talked to her.
.her words made so much sense to me.
.out of a sudden.
.she seem to have matured so much over time.
.even though we seldom confide.
.we know we have things to tell each other.
.and i finally understood the phrase.
.blood is thicker than water.
.love her to bits.
.like how i used to love her since young.
(:



.to my dear 8ties.
.we cried we laughed we quarrelled we burped we do crazy things all tog.
.u guys made me realise wad a true frenship is.
.all the encouragement and all the hugs and scoldings to make me a better person.
.THANKS!.
.love you guys to bits.
(:


.and yes.
.we love happy three frens.
=D



.there's just too much for me to take.
.my mind is in a mess now.
.sorry to all.
.i need time.
):

.and this time i dont know if i can do it.

.sometimes i wonder....


.do we smile from our heart.
.or do we smile for the sake of smiling?.



.is gng home abt spending time with your family.
.or is it abt gng back to a place where u call "home" to get some rest.



.do parents really care abt you.
.or are they just worried that they have no one to depend on when they are old?.



.does looks really matter.
.or is the inner beauty that the person possess brings out the beauty.



.why do people betray one another.
.when they used to trust each other so much.



.why do people make others feel miserable.
.so that they can feel happy abt it?.



.how can a person treat it like no one is there.
.when there is someone sitting next to him/her?.



.why doesnt a family look and behave like a family at home.
.but smile and act like a family in front of others?.



.why didnt my mum abort when i was in her womb as she has planned.
.but instead brought me to this cruel world?.



.why dont others appreciate the things you do.
.but instead comment negative remarks on you?.



,why do we always rmb the bad.
.and forget the good?.



.is it really that hard to give a second chance.
.even if the person s determined to turn over a new leaf?.


.why dont others listen.
.but chose to think things their way?.



.why do i feel so miserable?.

.thousand questions.
.million doubts.
.zillion uncertainty.


but...


.zero answers.

.i wanted to prove them proud.
.but they denied me of the chance to do so.
.they dont try to understand.
.and make assumptions their own.
.in the end.
.they come up with unreasonable conclusion.
.whats with all the attitudes and cold war.
.you guys are adults.
.can u guys freakingly stop being so childish?.
.forgive and forget.
.look who's talking eh?.
.utterly disappointed.
.maybe i can never be what u guys want me to be.
.but asking me to do things that i dont like and becoming a person thats not me.
.i cant do it.
.sorry daddy.
.sorry mummy.
.imma really sorry.

STEAMBOAT DAY!! YAY!!



.met eve first and went to buy the things she need for posting.
.lot1 is a disappointment man.
.such a big shopping centre but non of the shop sells nice big boxes.
.went for old chang kee cos we dont want to eat too much.
.then went back to my house to slack cos we still have time.




.supposed to meet nicole at 7.
.but she was late cos she forgot to take her money.
.hahahahaha.
.and that silly girl cabbed down to meet us.
=.=
.as usual.
.we were late.
.xing and jaei reached first when the three of us are still at commonwelth.
=D
.then its steamboat time!!!.
.neh have i been so full eating steamboat man.
.and eating and laughing at the same = not good.
.i think passer-bys will wonder why five lil girls can gobble down so much food.
.ahahahahahahaha.





.took train home.
.we did a real funny video when we boarded the train at marina.
.laughed like mad throughout that vid man.
.ive neh been so tired in my life before.
.and all the exhaustion is caused by laughing.
=D




joke of the day

-all of us were laughing to smth-
eve: eh, like that we can train our APE leii
nic,jaei,xing,me: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
eve: -puzzled and laughing also- what?
me:is abs la!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA



.and the five of us squeezed ourselves on four seats.
=.=
.look at the reflection.
.hahahahahahahahahahahaha.


PS:imma 18 years and four months old!=D

.i should learn to let go of the past.

.suppered with bao yansheng and junxian ytd.
.ate my fav yuyuanmian!.
-slurps!-
.bao was nice to walk me home.
.and there goes my diet plan.
=.=



.went to meet mok at taka.
.got to know that a lot of staffs that i worked with are quiting.
.a bit sad to hear that.
.but good that they are leaving.
.cos that placce is just a shit hole.
.mok treated me to teatime.
.had the choco noir at delifrance.
-yums!-





.went back to school after that.
.felt a bit weird cos i hadnt been gng back on mon and wed.
.and almost everyone i see asked the same qns.
=.=
.guess i needa go back more often.
.started to take photo in the studio.
=D
.and we decided on steamboat for dinner tmr.
.steamboatsteamboatsteamboatsteamboat.
AHAHAHAHA
.and thanks to them and jun.
.imma feeling much better now.
=D





.one year and ten months.
.but imma still stuck at it.
-sighs-

.departure.
.we always face it in our life.
.life and death.
.the most frequent and unbearable.
.been thru that and i know its not easy.
.but i have to try.
.cos i cant let the past conquer me.

.too much going through my head.
.too much emotions running through my body.
.too much words that i would like to voice out.
.simply too much for me to take.
.i guess i might be the cause of stress to others.
.and imma really apologetic to that.
.i just dont know how not to show my feelings.
.and low self-esteem doesnt help much.
.we all wear a mask on our face.
.because we want to shield ourselves from being revealed of our true self.
.but.
.the one thing that human fears is the inner self in the human itself.
.and yes.
.imma fearful of that.

wad the fcuk is wrong with me

6/4/07


.watched stomp the floor.
.our seniors got second.
.feel so happy for them.
.after that chilled with eve sonia mian bao alex and ron.




.met jaei after that.
.and we went for more chilling.
.walked from shaw house to paragon.
.chilled at the coffee bean.
.and then started the ghost story.
.freaked out by it.
.and keat was nice enough to acc me home.
.he waited two hours for me to reach cck.
so sorry!



7/4/07
.some bad things happen at work.
.and imma kinda affected.
.maybe looks of a person and figure was really everything.
.too bad.
.i have non on me.




.yiu dance workshop today.
.all i can say is.
.i needa know my body well.
.control control and control.
.chilled at Bp ljs.
.jaei nicole eve vanet and me.
.i think imma addicted to chilling.
=D

.for no one knows.
.it was all the disapointments that triggered everything.
.far too much.
.fading out.

清明节
.went over to grandma hse to pray.
.time flies eh?.
.its been 12 years since my grandpa is gone.
.and my grandma has brave thru these years alone.
.guess i should visit her more often.
.being lazy is not an excuse.
=x
.leaving an elder alone at home = not good.
.grandma.
.imma coming!!.
=D
.went to somewhere special today.
.thanks to nard.
.better to call u nard the "ahber".
.woke me up from my sleep.
.he thought i didnt knew.
.but once we hit the road i knew where we were gng.
.kept quiet till we were there.
.and i dont know why my body turned cold.
.real cold.
.and when we were there.
.i stood and stoned.
.and the next thing i know tears come down.
.nard gave me a pat and went off.
.there i was.
.thru out the three hours.
.alone talking to him telling him how was i during his absence.
.for once i really feel like hugging him for real.
.but all i could do was just to stare at the picture.
.helplessly looking at his smile.
.just cried.
.two more months and its the two years anni.
.time really flies.
.nard came back and he drove me to katong for laksa.
.he still rmb the shop.
.and i drooled on his car when he sent me home.
SO SORRY!






.wiile bdae party in the evening.
.supposedly to meeting eve and go tog.
.but she somehow got stuck in the office.
.so in the end i went alone.
=.=
.and i can say.
.friends is the next best thing that i can find on earth.
.and thanks to them.
.it lessen the pain i had.
.cos i can feel their love warmth and concern.
.took bus home but ron suggested chilling.
.so he eve and i went to KAP.
.as usual talked and craped and laughed.
.cabbed home cos mac was closing.
.and ron said that he used to frequent my neighbourhood.
.maybe i happen to see him last time.
=D
.gonna go watch our seniors compete @ cine.
.meeting eve five.
.but pray hard that i can wake up on time.
.finish all my chores and meet her on time.
.if not imma gonna get it from her.
=D
.good night earthlings!.
(:







P.S: imma meeting jun l8r!!!!!damn high!!!!!!!! =D





to nard:
.was surprised that u read my blog.
.and i know after today we gonna lead our life as we did.
.and we may never get to meet.
.but thanks for all that u have done for me.
.imma really grateful and i thank god for letting me know you.
.we are both stuck in the past.
.but i hope somehow someday.
.we can both walk out of this and smile when we talked abt it again.
.all the best ti your future.
.and i hope we can meet in time to come.
.take care.
(:

losing a friend hurts more than losing ur love.

.weekends was spent standing 12 hours at the m1 shop.
.yeah for both day.
.it wasnt so bad this week.
.cos i didnt get so much scoldings.
.thats because i have my live demo handsets with.
.well.
.thats how practical the peeps are there.
.and i cant help but feel inferior to others.
.low self-esteem i guess?.
.but was a lucky week cos i got to know new friends.
.alex from motorola and benson from samsung.
.alex's from sim and benson is from np.
.wad a small world la!.
.hahahahahahaha.
.talked and taught me a lot.
.they are just like big brothers to me.
.and alex treated me to hot fudge sundae during our break.
.thats like so nice can?.
.pity that we might not even meet the next time.
.cos imma permanently situated at imm.
>.<
.and i realised there are a lot of other promoters out there.
.hahahahaha.
.guess i still have lots to learn.




.headed down to bugis to meet jun after work on sun.
.not forgetting mum screaming her head off the other end of the phone asking me why imma not home yet.
.its been like a week since i last saw her?.
.how fast time pass eh?.
.walked from bugis to raffles.
.along the way a lady asked us for directions.
.and she thought we cant speak mandrian.
.hahaha.
.and when me and jun converse in mandrain.
.she exclaimed "oh!你们会讲中文!!!!"
.ahahahahahaha.
.so cute can.
.gave her the wrong directions at first.
.then caught up with her to tell her.
.in the end she cabbed to her destination.
=.=
.she was on back-packing alone.
.so brave can?.
.when i have the money.
.i shall go for back-packing.
.anyone wants to join me?.
.hahahahahahahha.
.did a lot of stupid stuffs while walking to raffles.
.and we saw a guy drooling on the train while he slept!!!.
.omg la.
.so no 形象 can?.
.and he even wipe off the saliva when he was awaken by the jerking of the train.
.i almost burst out laughing can.
.thank god jun reminded me tat he is just opposite us.
.AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA.
=p



.school's starting soon.
.baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

.why is the world like that?.